At a Breaking Point - 3/5/2025

Tonight, I feel like I’m at a breaking point.

Jack’s surgery went so well! His lip looks amazing, and his nose is so round and symmetrical. They originally estimated the procedure would take just over four hours, but it only took about three. We checked in at 7 AM, they took him back at 9 AM, and by 1 PM, we were finally reunited with our boy.

The hardest part has been getting his pain under control. Coming off anesthesia was rough—he was in so much pain, and it felt like we spent the next six hours just trying to catch up. We’re hopeful that we’re finally ahead of it now. Fingers crossed. 🤞🏻

Eating has been a challenge, but he’s trying so hard. He’s only had two full bottles, but he’s taking little bits every few hours. You can tell it hurts, but he still wants to eat. We’ll take what we can get. As long as he stays hydrated, that’s all that matters right now.

Since he had facial reconstruction, there are a lot of stitches in his favorite place—his mouth. My little guy loves to munch on his hands, snuggle his stuffed animals against his face, and rub his eyes and nose. But now, that’s a huge no-no. So we have to hold him 24/7, making sure he doesn’t accidentally rub or hit his stitches.

The tricky part? Jack doesn’t like to be swaddled. He loves having his arms free and stretched above him. So keeping him still and comfortable has been a full-time job.

We’re exhausted, overwhelmed, and running on fumes—but we’re also incredibly grateful. Grateful for a smooth surgery. Grateful for the incredible medical team. Grateful for our strong little fighter.

Now, we just take it one moment at a time.

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